My story.....

This is my story of my weight loss struggles, my current determination to lose weight and put an end to the struggle.
So here is a little about me and my life.

I come from a large family, we grew up in the country in a very small town in Arizona. My childhood was spent going to rodeos, I grew up riding horses and running around on 5 acres of land. I went to a very small school, and everyone that I grew up with Ive literally known since Kindergarten. I was an average child, I wasnt by any means a fat child growing up, but I used to get picked on for my weight starting in 6th grade, some of the girls would call me "twinkie" and some of the boys would tease me and call me names. You can chalk it all up to kids will be kids and boys make fun of the girls that they like, I can actually say that the things they said to me never bothered me because I knew better so as an adult I harbor no bitter feelings.

After my 8th grade graduation we moved away from our small town, under circumstances that were beyond our control. I can honestly say that going from a small town and knowing everyone for all your life, and moving to a big city where you know noone and everything seems foreign is the scariest thing. I lost contact with most of my childhood friends, and i made alot of new friends over the years in high school. For me high school wasnt horrible, but i know that i could have made it alot better of an experience. We live and we learn, but in the end i am me for all of the decions that i have made. I was pretty active in high school, I took dance classes and I fell in love with it, for me it was a place i could take myself and forget about all the things that were happening with my family and just be myself. I was by no means part of the popular crowd, and i never really hung out with a certain group of people i had friends that were on the football team, that were cheerleaders, stoners, skaters, in band, and part of theatre. I had a few boyfriends, but never anything serious, I lost many friends in high school ansd I still to this day mourn the loss of them. They say time will heal all wounds but its been some 10-12 years later and they still feel like the day it happened sometimes.

My senior year of high school I became pregnant, lost my grandfather to cancer and grew up pretty fast for a 17 year old. With the stress of school, being pregnant, losing my grandfather, being kicked out of my mothers house I moved in with my boyfriend. I had a very easy pregnancy, short of having morning sickness til i was 81/2 month pregnant, it was very easy lol. I gained all of my weight being pregnant, I went from being 160lbs to 22olbs by the time I gave birth to my daughter. I had moved back to the little town I had grown up in, but everyone that i grew up with was all attending a regular high school and living their lives. I pretty much had no friends at that point, noone to hang out with and i gained alot of weight. I really had no motivation to lose the baby weight after I had my daughter, I wish that I did but i cant change that now.

So this is me almost 10 years after I had my daughter, after 1o years of struggling with my weight. 1o years of saying that Im going to lose this much this year, and never doing it, 10 years of crash dieting for me is over. I am motivated and determined to lose weight and be healthy for myself and my family, so from here on out I will chronicle the journey that I am starting, all the successes and all the failures that I will see. I hope in the end of this I become a healthier me!
So feel free to join me as I post pictures, and stories, as I chronicle every little thing that I am going thru. I hope that in the end I have inspired someone to take control of their life like I am doing mine, and that in the end I can be my own success story and not the typical failure that I was for 1o years.